BREAK THROUGH

We broke through a layer that has been cringing for millennia before memories and stories.

The essence of humanness imprinting our DNA with “us” notes. Eyes, grief, anger, irritation, bliss, impatience, uncertainty, dreams, possibilities, disillusion, opening, closing, all states in one moment of silence, in one scream of joy.

We are all the same – beaming this spark of love that contains all. Sounds good, yet it also contains all the pain of humanity, dissolving past-present-future identities of dreams and visions of hopes and fears.

We pierced through some thick residue that has been accumulating, making a huge effort to keep itself in isolation, having a thousand and one strategies to run away as soon as the pain starts to sing the emptiness of the heart. This built up has continued until it couldn’t hold any longer the inner pressure. It burst in trials of accusations, at the same time recognising the impossibility of maintaining its separation as proud-prize.

Yes, there were drops of blood let as the needle of awareness stung this protection, releasing life force with the intensity of red. Fear, gentleness, relief…these drops are gathering on the soil, permeating its crust to get warmer again, not to dry out but to feed other forms of life. Maybe tiny insects that nobody sees, thoughts that are disguised as they are beyond discussion or opinions – simply reflections of what is designated by the vibrations of the moment without ideologic decorations – boring!

Uninteresting for most, yet containing the purest direct perception, no filters.

What makes it so difficult to simply STAY! HERE! NOW!? one breath at the time…

I love you becomes ridiculous. Love is YOU, love is ME, love is US, love is no one. Let’s simply stay! Others may come and fall in the hole forever! Let’s dare so… I love you as one…too much is too little for this vastness that opens without demands.

I run away because it is scary to stand in this infinite space alone. Makes me cry. Though, when I am there, there is no one. There is only a flash second of terror, when the light is so bright and I can only see darkness. Both are one again. It does not make any difference if I have my eyes open or closed.

This love is subtle as a whisper, silent as clouds sliding by, full blast lightening and thunders as well as shining and bright sky… Names, definitions, labels, stories will crush the gentleness of its wings, will burden its lightness, avoid its depth. I want to pierce the earth until it reaches the center. This core of incandescent fire, vibrating and warming, in the pulsation that throbs through obstructions with its glow as flames against the open space, giving twinkle to the stars. Nobody can hold it…it has to expand uncontrollably.

I am afraid to lose the beauty of its hollowness inside my heart, as it is my refuge and greatest threaten. When this love takes over, there is awe and fear ending on a sand beach. Nowhere to run to or towards!

When it comes back looking for itself, it sobs tears of grief, leaving a puddle of sorrow, as its track is designed on sand and the wind is blowing, all interactions dissolve in profound reset. Show up! A loud voice echoes…

May the gods impart us the grace of disappearing, becoming quantum particles and waves at the same time, with wings and fins.